Above all things I am a Mama and I have been blessed with two kids who have been my greatest teachers. Bodhi is three years old with a soul of gold. He has eased this heart and brought me to a place I have never been before and I savor all that he is. Nevaeh passed away when she was five months old. Tho her journey was brief, her impact has been magnificent. She has allowed me to define myself for what I have, not what I have lost, and I miss her very much! This is my third attempt at blogging about life after Nevy. In my previous attempts, I felt like I was editing myself and writing what I thought people wanted to read. I was scared of what people would think and terrified I may offend someone. I am letting go of those ideas and staying true to myself, my precious children, my family, my friends, my "God", and my journey. If I can reach one other grieving mama I know I have made a difference.